Special

spe·cial

   /ˈspɛʃəl/ Show Spelled[spesh-uhl] Show IPA

adjective

1.

of a distinct or particular kind or character: a special kind of key.

2.

being a particular one; particular, individual, or certain: You'd better call the special number.

3.

pertaining or peculiar to a particular person, thing, instance, etc.; distinctive; unique: the special features of a plan.

4.

having a specific or particular function, purpose, etc.: a special messenger.

5.

distinguished or different from what is ordinary or usual: a special occasion; to fix something special.

 

 

 

I remember that feeling. When he would make me feel that way. I miss that feeling. Lately ive been feeling the exact opposite. One of my best friends well  isn't there for me anymore [but hey her real life is super busy now] my other best friend lives in another town but hell be back soon and my husband well his number one priority is his video games. Ive talked to him already how he needs to make me feel special and stuff but nothings changed. I'm afraid it never will change.

Seems like my only happiness is with my best friend. Hes a male so our friendship will never be strong because ignorant people think guys cant "just be friends" with girls which really sucks.

Ive been maarried for almost 9 years. The flame is slowly dieing and i feel like such a failure. We have had our ups and downs we communicate but how much longer can we communicate and nothing changes?  I'm at a cross roads  where all i can do now is pray for guidance.

He never wants to do anything anymore but stay home. I understand we dont have finances but we do have a park right across the street and a pool right outside but when i suggest stuff he says no i dont want to. I wish my best friend was around more. He loves doing the things I do. I dont have many friends i do have aquaitances but I guess im not fun enough for them. Ugh will this sad feeling go away please and thank you!