Memo

Seriously, if your going to have someone offer get off your ass and clean my house. How many times have I asked you to do this small task???  Family or not. FFS!!! Oh the frustrations

30 weeks pregnant

Negatives

     I am so tired of negative people.what it's worse is when it's a "long time friend". You don't have money to do shit I get it but do you have to shove it down out throats every single day? I don't have money either but I don't remind everyone every day.
     Then I have another "friend" who is oblivious to sex. she just got married and is 29. I had to explain to her that you can get pregnant while on your period and I had to explain birth control to her. She thinks your stomach grows so fast when your pregnant or you feel the baby kick once your pregnant. Im usually a nice helpful friend but I am about Fed up and simply annoyed! This is why I don't give my phone number out.
     I weighed myself today I haven't gained any weight since I last saw a doctor over a month ago. Insurance it's a nightmare! I applied for medical and it's taken long time to see wether or not I'm approved. Since then my doctors office said they can't see me because I qualify for some type of insurance that I have yet to receive information about. I'm due in 2 months or less and I'm scared as hell! The unborn baby kicks all day normal on schedule. I'm so stressed out tho. I'm worn out tired and it gets hard getting around. I'm so thankful that I'm moving in with my parents for a few months. I just really need a doctor and I'm clueless on what to do.

Happy fathers day, and some thoughts..

Happy fathers day to all the hard working dads. Not only do you work hard rather it be at a job or stay at home but you also have to put up with us wives! Ha ha

Now that that's out of the way I have some thoughts. A lot of "single mom's" out there are posting happy fathers day to the mom's who are pulling double duty. Post this if you have been divorced or your significant other has passed. I agree with that whole heartedly!  But to the dumb sluts out there who can't keep your legs closed how dare you post this!  You chose him.you chose to have un protected sex with that loser who couldn't be man enough to stay in your child's life. Don't go posting shit how hard you work both roles. YES I'm rolling my eyes at you.
My mom always taught me marriage first then babies. I know it's totally different now a days but I feel like I've gotten jipped. Should I blame my mom for teaching me wrong? Ha ha so I think I should have got pregnant then applied for welfare. Most my friends have done it this way and are thriving. Here I am struggling married with a beautiful family and another one the way.Sometimes I stop and think where did I go wrong? I know my time will come. As long as I have the love of my family I am wealthy!

Summer

Finally this year I was actually looking forward to summer. Due to financial issues and graduations with family who doesn't even give a shit about me I can't do anything! Story of my life.Hopefully this fall will be tons better with some cold weather.

Better

The day got better. My husband cleaned and apologized and my best friend finally made a tumblr!

I also was able to get a hair cut last Friday and I'm in love with it!

Another day

Its mothers day again. I'm bummed I couldn't do anything, again.  Just like every other holiday but shame on me I'm suppose to be cheerful all the time!  Duh! How dare I feel the slightest bit sad.  Hot dam but everyone else can Bitch and complain about other shit and that's alright. Maybe instead of a lecture I could have used a hug ? No you just get mad telling me to have fun spending it alone. Thanks.  It really cheered me up !

Baby bumps

So I'm 26 weeks along. 96 more days to go.  I have been to so many doctor appointments . I'm so happy but then I find myself sad.  I hate this roller coaster . I hate crying for no reason. 
P.s. is another girl! 

Giving Up.

This month is bringing an exciting one. For starters I am turning 30 and am totally excited about it. Ill officially be a woman sort of say. Second thing is my nephew is getting married! It's so nice to see them growing. But why do they have to grow so fast?
But other then all that excitement comes rain. I still have no friends. No one wants to be around me. Not even my "internet best friend." I barely exist to her. I don't know what I did wrong. I quit playing second life and she kind of quit being my friend. No time no energy for me. I talk to her here and there and she made my cat a wonderful dress but still nothings the same anymore. I go through the list of people that I do know but by the end of the day I realize I have no friends. No one to talk to about anything. Sure I have my husband and daughter but someone out of this place would be nice. I thought I was a pretty good friend. I am kind and I do things for them, I keep my issues to myself , I listen and I try to be available. But to every single person they just up and leave for no good reason. They don't even tell me why we only say forced hello's as we pass each other.I am trying to find the light in this on going situation but I am losing grip. I wish I could stop caring. Wish I could just be grateful for the people I do have in my life. My family.Maybe once I move out of this stupid town I can meet new people. The world out there is scary to where you can't really trust anyone. So here's to giving up on a social life and becoming more and more like a hermit.